Hi & welcome to my blog.
Allow me to tell you a little bit about myself. I’m a wife, mother, daughter, step daughter, sister-in law & step sister in law – yeah it’s gotten quite complicated over the past few years. I live in Melbourne Australia & I’m in my mid 30′s. I have two older brothers – one living here in Melbourne with his amazing wife & daughter & my other brother living in Las Vegas with his partner & are looking hopefully to relocate somewhere in Australia in the next few years. I have a degree in business administration with a major in Marketing & spent over 10 years in the advertising industry at various agencies in account management. I grew up in an (Jewish) Orthodox home & my father was a Rabbi of a large Synagogue in the South Eastern suburbs of Melbourne. He left the Synagogue after 24 years in 2007 & sadly my parents separated shortly afterwards after 39 years of marriage. I also miscarried that week.
My husband Seon & I met early 2006, were engaged NYE 2007 & married August that year. Seon’s a game developer & has his own company called 3Sprockets (which release Cubemen early 2012 & been really successful) & spends each day being a code monkey in our converted garage which is his office. He is a truly wonderful & supportive husband & the most dedicated & proud father. I’m truly very blessed.
We have two amazing children – Orli who will be four this September & Flynn who just turned one. They were both born at 36 weeks & just over 2kgs. It’s been an intense journey getting to where I am today. I’m a survivor of PND/PPD which saw my admitted to a parent infant psych family (nuthouse) when Orli was eight weeks old & we spend the first year of her life in therapy & at weekly attendances at the nuthouse. We decided to have another baby & I ended up having a most complicated pregnancy where our baby had an 80% chance of not making it. I gave birth to a seemingly healthy baby boy who presented a week & a half later with feeding issues & considered ‘failure to thrive’ (FTT). He was readmitted to hospital & we remained there for nine weeks where he was later diagnosed with Laryngomalacia which is why I have information on this blog on this medical condition. He is improving, however his condition can be serious & needs to be closely monitored. At twelve months, Flynn is still considered FTT as his weight is very low, but he’s meeting his developmental milestones which is encouraging. He has some feeding issues & still on pureed foods as he chokes on lumps but we’re hopeful this will resolve soon.
Life is complicated but it’s how you deal with the things thrown at you that determine your happiness & contentment. I’m working on being ok with being me, with being a good wife & being a good enough mother to our children. I am learning forgiveness, I am learning patience (it’s not an easy one), I am learning acceptance & I am learning the true meaning of the word ‘unconditional’. Sadly, (for some) I haven’t learnt to cook!
I consider myself a mother that has recovered PND/PPD whilst acknowledging that the experience has changed me forever. I no longer look over my shoulder thinking it will strike me again, as thankfully, I avoided the demon after having Flynn, however I will never be the same person I was prior to my postnatal/postpartum mood disorder (PMD) nearly four years ago. Depression & anxiety have been my friends throughout my life but I am working on managing them. I have named my conditions Patty & Selma – Patty is depression & Selma anxiety. One of my #PPDChat mamas inspired me to name these conditions as a way of both recognising & disarming them. And the #PPDChatArmy mamas have affectionally names their anxiety Velma, so Selma & Velma get fair airtime in the Twitterverse.
I have a few mantras that get me through each day & they are: ‘It’s not forever’, ‘It’s about progress’ & ‘I want to be a mother not a martyr’. And I truly believe that all mothers both endure & enjoy motherhood – you don’t have to have been admitted to the nuthouse to agree. As Oprah says, ‘it’s the hardest job on earth’ & as one of my closest friends told me just before I had Orli, ‘it’s the hardest thing you’ll ever do but the best thing you’ll ever do’.
I look forward to sharing my life’s journey & my perspectives on motherhood with you all – the ups, the downs, the highs, the lows & absolutely everything in between. And not just about wee.